Wednesday, September 30, 2009
forgot today was fire drill day at work. so i was pretty surprised when the fire drill alarm went off. sherman came into the room and asked me to get out. -.- wth, thanks arhs. me, seri, huda, shima and sherman represented the firm. only benefit was we got to ogle at some rather hawt students from the school next door. yay?
lunch was korean food. ♥ loves! insisted on having my saba鱼. happy happy. sherman and jake had korean food too but they looked so unimpressed. thanks for ruining the mood yaaaaar.
class was dull. tried to stay awake but just barely. smsed with michelle for a bit before she went to sleep. 懒惰猪.
earthquake. christine's workplace building shook really badly that she evacuated and left work for the day. poor girl. she came over to find us, i think she was a bit traumatized.
watching sg idol now with parents and kevin while msning with axel. i think we talk a lot of nonsense. like right now, he just told me that female dogs menstruate. okay okay, i'm very 'suaku' and i didn't know that. so i just learnt today that female dogs DO menustruate.
lunch was korean food. ♥ loves! insisted on having my saba鱼. happy happy. sherman and jake had korean food too but they looked so unimpressed. thanks for ruining the mood yaaaaar.
class was dull. tried to stay awake but just barely. smsed with michelle for a bit before she went to sleep. 懒惰猪.
earthquake. christine's workplace building shook really badly that she evacuated and left work for the day. poor girl. she came over to find us, i think she was a bit traumatized.
watching sg idol now with parents and kevin while msning with axel. i think we talk a lot of nonsense. like right now, he just told me that female dogs menstruate. okay okay, i'm very 'suaku' and i didn't know that. so i just learnt today that female dogs DO menustruate.
what we could have been, 8:39 pm.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
feeling much better today. just that after the cramps, had some sort of skin allergy. broke out in angry bumps and itches. grrrr.
is it my fault that i'm very chummy with some people? it just can't be helped that i click better with others. i find it very frustrating to have to explain my every move and to defend or justify what i do. its both upsetting and sickening. its even more irritating when people play the tragic role and i am cast as the evil one.
classes start on thursday. gonna have to skip the wedding. SORRY CHRISTINE! i really did want to attend but studies have to come first. (especially when its $650 a pop, mind you)
finally got my pay! decided i'm gonna save up for my baby CuPcake. and i think a handful of people know how badly i want. HINT TO MY PARENTS - i wouldn't mind a half-sponsored CuPcake!
is it my fault that i'm very chummy with some people? it just can't be helped that i click better with others. i find it very frustrating to have to explain my every move and to defend or justify what i do. its both upsetting and sickening. its even more irritating when people play the tragic role and i am cast as the evil one.
classes start on thursday. gonna have to skip the wedding. SORRY CHRISTINE! i really did want to attend but studies have to come first. (especially when its $650 a pop, mind you)
finally got my pay! decided i'm gonna save up for my baby CuPcake. and i think a handful of people know how badly i want. HINT TO MY PARENTS - i wouldn't mind a half-sponsored CuPcake!
what we could have been, 8:50 pm.
Monday, September 28, 2009
something's wrong with either my laptop or my internet connection so finally blogging at work..
out sick. seriously bad bad bad pain but i cant afford to skip school or work so yeah. sighh. ughhhh, can barely concentrate coz i'm in so much pain. obviously not very coherent either but wth.
thinking of going home at lunchtime but i've got school in the PM. dammit. hopefully i can endure this until 5pm then i'll hurry home, pass out for the next two days and wake up cured. heh. that's a big if.
out sick. seriously bad bad bad pain but i cant afford to skip school or work so yeah. sighh. ughhhh, can barely concentrate coz i'm in so much pain. obviously not very coherent either but wth.
thinking of going home at lunchtime but i've got school in the PM. dammit. hopefully i can endure this until 5pm then i'll hurry home, pass out for the next two days and wake up cured. heh. that's a big if.
what we could have been, 8:55 am.
Friday, September 25, 2009
first day of the entire week to sleep in and i couldn't even sleep past 8 before someone typically disturbed me. GRRRRRRRRR. f-ing hell. i need my own room and with a lock.
met mich around 2 to kbox. so annoyed with the kbox staff at times. they're so inflexible right mich? the people at suntec are waaaaaaaaaay more reasonable. anyways had fun as usual. i think we sounded bad today but we managed to harmonize after the first drink.
had two hours to kill before the movie started. ate at the food court (for the second day in the row!) which is a damn near miracle for both me and mich who are firmly non-supporters of food courts and even more so of hawker centres. ick. satisfied my chocolate cravings by having waffles. hah.
walked around before ending up at the supermarket. and its the first place where michelle would start her nonsensical 'logic'. she said she wanted to buy a type of cheese just because it had holes. le sigh. her reason was coz it looked tasty on tom and jerry.
later she predicted that i'd meet my dream guy by the end of this year and have his baby by the end of 2010. and i think i was high enough to let her talk me into it. haha. so stupid but we were giggling over a load of stuff by then.
the ugly truth movie was pretty good. kept laughing. accidentally said 'wow' really loudly when the neighbor appeared coz i was just commenting i wouldnt mind a really hawt neighbor (as opposed to my rude, noisy neighbors).
walked home with mich. we barely walked out of the car park before she complained she wanted to cab back but we managed to walk pretty far before i wanted to take a bus. mich got onto the bus with me coz there was a cockroach at the bus stop. pity for her was if she had been more patient, her bus was actually just behind mine. a real laugh that was.
would prob blog more but i'm too tired at this point to formulate coherent sentences beyond this.
so pliant, so trusting.
you knew the storyline well.
met mich around 2 to kbox. so annoyed with the kbox staff at times. they're so inflexible right mich? the people at suntec are waaaaaaaaaay more reasonable. anyways had fun as usual. i think we sounded bad today but we managed to harmonize after the first drink.
had two hours to kill before the movie started. ate at the food court (for the second day in the row!) which is a damn near miracle for both me and mich who are firmly non-supporters of food courts and even more so of hawker centres. ick. satisfied my chocolate cravings by having waffles. hah.
walked around before ending up at the supermarket. and its the first place where michelle would start her nonsensical 'logic'. she said she wanted to buy a type of cheese just because it had holes. le sigh. her reason was coz it looked tasty on tom and jerry.
later she predicted that i'd meet my dream guy by the end of this year and have his baby by the end of 2010. and i think i was high enough to let her talk me into it. haha. so stupid but we were giggling over a load of stuff by then.
the ugly truth movie was pretty good. kept laughing. accidentally said 'wow' really loudly when the neighbor appeared coz i was just commenting i wouldnt mind a really hawt neighbor (as opposed to my rude, noisy neighbors).
walked home with mich. we barely walked out of the car park before she complained she wanted to cab back but we managed to walk pretty far before i wanted to take a bus. mich got onto the bus with me coz there was a cockroach at the bus stop. pity for her was if she had been more patient, her bus was actually just behind mine. a real laugh that was.
would prob blog more but i'm too tired at this point to formulate coherent sentences beyond this.
so pliant, so trusting.
you knew the storyline well.
what we could have been, 11:07 pm.
conked out really early on wednesday which meant my laptop saw no usage that day. kinda worried my friends since i'm the weird insomniac who doesn't sleep. yes yes, i'm having my off days thrown together and now i desperately need sleep.
i feel like my days are clumped together. school. work. gym. health care crap. and the cycle repeats itself. like this week, i didn't see my friends, outside from work that is. kinda sucks.
friday mahjong party got cancelled which means i'm so heading over a bookstore and buying my latest list of books to read. i'm a voracious reader, so sue me.
work's not too bad. client(slash-boss) can be super difficult but that's life. i think sherman, jake and i live for fb/twitter/msn then because we might probably just die. we're super spammers especially on long afternoons. today was just madness and sugar rushes.
have an outing with them next week. hope i don't have class then. seriously i want my fun time!
i feel like my days are clumped together. school. work. gym. health care crap. and the cycle repeats itself. like this week, i didn't see my friends, outside from work that is. kinda sucks.
friday mahjong party got cancelled which means i'm so heading over a bookstore and buying my latest list of books to read. i'm a voracious reader, so sue me.
work's not too bad. client(slash-boss) can be super difficult but that's life. i think sherman, jake and i live for fb/twitter/msn then because we might probably just die. we're super spammers especially on long afternoons. today was just madness and sugar rushes.
have an outing with them next week. hope i don't have class then. seriously i want my fun time!
what we could have been, 12:27 am.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
took this right brain left brain quiz. a bit of a DUH, obvious choice thing. no doubt about it, i'm more right brain than left so yeah. results back that up.
You are a right brain dominant student!
You probably get bored during long lectures and prefer to take classes with a lot of freedom of movement and thought. You like to write stories and even tell stories about your funny experiences. You might be a little suspicious of other people's motives sometimes, but that's only because you can usually tell whenever someone is lying or when they're up to no good. You are a little on the dreamy side--or a lot. You plan books or movie plots but you don't always follow through on things you think about. You should work on that. You are fun and spontaneous, and probably active in sports or clubs. Your feelings run deep, and it shows. You have strong instincts, and you solve problems on hunches and feelings. You are artistic in some way. You can believe in things based on experience, without seeing scientific proof.
Characteristics of Right-Brain Students
* You take notes but lose them. You may have a hard time keeping track of your research
* You might have a hard time making up your mind
* You are good with people
* You don't fall for practical jokes as easily as some
* You seem dreamy, but you're really deep in thought
* People may have told you you're psychic
* You like to write fiction, draw, or play music
* You might be athletic
* You like mystery stories
* You take time to ponder and you think there are two sides to every story
* You may lose track of time
* You are spontaneous
* You’re fun and witty
* You may find it hard to follow verbal directions
* You are unpredictable
* You get lost
* You are emotional
* You don't like reading directions
* You may listen to music while studying
* You read lying down
* You may be interested in “the unexplained”
* You are philosophical
Your Classes
* In history class, you enjoy the social aspects most. You like to explore the effects of things that happened in history. You like the essays, too.
* You can do well in math class if you apply yourself, but you get bored doing long problems.
* Science? Boring.
* You do well in English class, especially when it comes to reading literature and writing essays about books. You also do well in creative writing assignments.
Advice for Right Brain Students
* Choose to do personal essays
* Watch your daydreaming—keep it under control
* Let your imagination work for you in the arts
* Let your intuition work for you in social situations
* Let your deep thinking work for you during essay tests—but don’t ponder too long
* Be creative with essays. You can use colorful language well
* Use images and charts when you study
* Write down directions
* Try to be more organized!
* Don’t be overly suspicious of others
* Make outlines to organize your thoughts.
* Choose fiction in reading assignments
* Try to avoid teachers who lecture a lot; choose teachers who use activities
* You tell stories well, so write some!
* Put information into categories for better understanding
* Avoid getting bogged down by thinking of all possibilities when answering questions
* Finish things! You have so much talent, but you don’t always complete things.
You are a right brain dominant student!
You probably get bored during long lectures and prefer to take classes with a lot of freedom of movement and thought. You like to write stories and even tell stories about your funny experiences. You might be a little suspicious of other people's motives sometimes, but that's only because you can usually tell whenever someone is lying or when they're up to no good. You are a little on the dreamy side--or a lot. You plan books or movie plots but you don't always follow through on things you think about. You should work on that. You are fun and spontaneous, and probably active in sports or clubs. Your feelings run deep, and it shows. You have strong instincts, and you solve problems on hunches and feelings. You are artistic in some way. You can believe in things based on experience, without seeing scientific proof.
Characteristics of Right-Brain Students
* You take notes but lose them. You may have a hard time keeping track of your research
* You might have a hard time making up your mind
* You are good with people
* You don't fall for practical jokes as easily as some
* You seem dreamy, but you're really deep in thought
* People may have told you you're psychic
* You like to write fiction, draw, or play music
* You might be athletic
* You like mystery stories
* You take time to ponder and you think there are two sides to every story
* You may lose track of time
* You are spontaneous
* You’re fun and witty
* You may find it hard to follow verbal directions
* You are unpredictable
* You get lost
* You are emotional
* You don't like reading directions
* You may listen to music while studying
* You read lying down
* You may be interested in “the unexplained”
* You are philosophical
Your Classes
* In history class, you enjoy the social aspects most. You like to explore the effects of things that happened in history. You like the essays, too.
* You can do well in math class if you apply yourself, but you get bored doing long problems.
* Science? Boring.
* You do well in English class, especially when it comes to reading literature and writing essays about books. You also do well in creative writing assignments.
Advice for Right Brain Students
* Choose to do personal essays
* Watch your daydreaming—keep it under control
* Let your imagination work for you in the arts
* Let your intuition work for you in social situations
* Let your deep thinking work for you during essay tests—but don’t ponder too long
* Be creative with essays. You can use colorful language well
* Use images and charts when you study
* Write down directions
* Try to be more organized!
* Don’t be overly suspicious of others
* Make outlines to organize your thoughts.
* Choose fiction in reading assignments
* Try to avoid teachers who lecture a lot; choose teachers who use activities
* You tell stories well, so write some!
* Put information into categories for better understanding
* Avoid getting bogged down by thinking of all possibilities when answering questions
* Finish things! You have so much talent, but you don’t always complete things.
what we could have been, 11:59 pm.
went to work super early today. was so exhausted and i could barely keep my eyes open in the am. stoned pretty much throughout the day but at least i got a bit of work done.
subway for lunch! i love the nearby subway, they're so generous with the tuna so i order it every time.
tempted to go buy more books to read but i'm holding out til thursday then i'll pick two, maybe three books for the weekend.
finally caught up with vampire dairies. yeah. pity the story doesn't quite have the same thrilling effect as the books had when i read it back in primary school. omggg. can you imagine how old these books are? i feel damn old thinking about it too. le sigh.
i'm tired of your lies,
your empty promises, your false pretenses.
so i'm writing you out of this fairytale.
closing a chapter,
goodbye to what i thought
was a happy ending.
to my prince charming
that was never to be.
subway for lunch! i love the nearby subway, they're so generous with the tuna so i order it every time.
tempted to go buy more books to read but i'm holding out til thursday then i'll pick two, maybe three books for the weekend.
finally caught up with vampire dairies. yeah. pity the story doesn't quite have the same thrilling effect as the books had when i read it back in primary school. omggg. can you imagine how old these books are? i feel damn old thinking about it too. le sigh.
i'm tired of your lies,
your empty promises, your false pretenses.
so i'm writing you out of this fairytale.
closing a chapter,
goodbye to what i thought
was a happy ending.
to my prince charming
that was never to be.
what we could have been, 11:24 pm.
Monday, September 21, 2009
had my paper yesterday. was pretty unnerved before it even started but managed to calm down and revise a bit before going on. alright paper but not entirely confident.
met my dad to see the dead sea scrolls exhibition. to my surprise, i bumped into an old friend. really glad to see this bit of my past pop out. didn't really talk but i think he seemed shocked. yes yes, i don't look like the me from three years ago. anyhoos, loved the exhibit. had lunch at the country club then went to see the art auction preview. i told my dad i liked some of the pieces but he was like 'no way'. pity.
had a pretty good day, gastronomic-ally it was fantastic. had foie gras, lobster risotto, lobster thermidor and baked alaska for lunch. (omg, i sound like a pig but it was so good, i couldn't resist) dinner was awesome too. even kevin, who hates indian food, ate quite a big share.
watching the chelsea match now. i'm really happy. 2nd goal was by BALLACK. wooooo. was really annoyed when he got called off. grrr. but drogba scored after that so didn't dwell much coz i was busy telling mich and jake how thrilled i was. teehee.
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over
-love drunk, boys like girls
met my dad to see the dead sea scrolls exhibition. to my surprise, i bumped into an old friend. really glad to see this bit of my past pop out. didn't really talk but i think he seemed shocked. yes yes, i don't look like the me from three years ago. anyhoos, loved the exhibit. had lunch at the country club then went to see the art auction preview. i told my dad i liked some of the pieces but he was like 'no way'. pity.
had a pretty good day, gastronomic-ally it was fantastic. had foie gras, lobster risotto, lobster thermidor and baked alaska for lunch. (omg, i sound like a pig but it was so good, i couldn't resist) dinner was awesome too. even kevin, who hates indian food, ate quite a big share.
watching the chelsea match now. i'm really happy. 2nd goal was by BALLACK. wooooo. was really annoyed when he got called off. grrr. but drogba scored after that so didn't dwell much coz i was busy telling mich and jake how thrilled i was. teehee.
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over
-love drunk, boys like girls
what we could have been, 12:22 am.
Friday, September 18, 2009
trying to keep calm before my exam tomorrow. the last thing i need is for myself to go into freak out mode and forget everything that i had so painfully memorized, shed tears over and walked into a wall for.
mom picked me up early am from michie's place after the overnight cram session. -blows kisses- thanks a bunch mich.
spent the whole day studying, sleeping and snacking. oh yes and talking with kev. he's such a nuisance but he's just so lovable. can you just imagine the cheesy smile that's supposedly going with that? -shudders-
mom picked me up early am from michie's place after the overnight cram session. -blows kisses- thanks a bunch mich.
spent the whole day studying, sleeping and snacking. oh yes and talking with kev. he's such a nuisance but he's just so lovable. can you just imagine the cheesy smile that's supposedly going with that? -shudders-
what we could have been, 10:29 pm.
i've got an exam in thirty plus hours and all i wanna do is SLEEEEEEEEEEEP. sighs. okay, bad me, whatever but seriously turning into some kind of zombie.
michelle is laughing about my weird nightmares about an er tb chasing me. -.- not funny yo.
kaes la. i must give praise. she's my motivator-cum-torturer. forcing me to study into artic conditions while trying to memorise chapters and answer questions PROPERLY. oh wells, at least the answer-question part is more or less MUCH IMPROVED. especially in the bloody cold.
having insane conversations with michelle the last two days. even had a super disgusting-weird one just seconds ago about her toes. she was 'looking closer' *coughsmellingcough* at her toes and i thought she was gonna bite it. so i semi-freaked. lols. weird cow.
we went out for early supper. gonna get fat sia. i ate so much then and now we're snacking on homemade cookies which jt thinks its inedible but actually is pretty decent. (note: i need to add this or mich will kill me)
anyways gonna have to continue when i CRAVE my sleep so so badly. S.O.S.
michelle is laughing about my weird nightmares about an er tb chasing me. -.- not funny yo.
kaes la. i must give praise. she's my motivator-cum-torturer. forcing me to study into artic conditions while trying to memorise chapters and answer questions PROPERLY. oh wells, at least the answer-question part is more or less MUCH IMPROVED. especially in the bloody cold.
having insane conversations with michelle the last two days. even had a super disgusting-weird one just seconds ago about her toes. she was 'looking closer' *coughsmellingcough* at her toes and i thought she was gonna bite it. so i semi-freaked. lols. weird cow.
we went out for early supper. gonna get fat sia. i ate so much then and now we're snacking on homemade cookies which jt thinks its inedible but actually is pretty decent. (note: i need to add this or mich will kill me)
anyways gonna have to continue when i CRAVE my sleep so so badly. S.O.S.
what we could have been, 2:59 am.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
lauraa; michelle: hahhaa. but i dowan chocolates though. i want candy. haahaha. chocs can be difficult to carry around. i wanna shop too! oh man oh man. hahahaha.
16 Sep 09, 00:02
Michelle: haha... we're totally crazy we will go shop for chocolates next week lor, and NEWLOOK,Topshop.haha
16 Sep 09, 00:00
lauraa; michelle: ehhh. how i know. you know what i normally like. white choco too. but i dont like cute, i like s3xy designs. xD
15 Sep 09, 23:58
Michelle: And i dont like nuts!
15 Sep 09, 23:57
Michelle: wrappers*
15 Sep 09, 23:57
Michelle: But what kind do you like to eat. I like gold wrapped white chocolate with cute decorations. Yummy!
15 Sep 09, 23:55
lauraa; michelle: uhhhh. sadly no. -.- hard to find also. might as well give up but too addicted. must help me find a new, better flavour!!!
15 Sep 09, 23:54
Michelle: your*
15 Sep 09, 23:54
Michelle: i haven found the flavour i like how to stick, must try out different flavours maybe i might fall in love with it. You addiction to THAT BRAND sighs. no comments lor. But that brand quite alot right?
15 Sep 09, 23:52
lauraa; michelle: hahaha. you're too picky. =p stuck with one flavour which is addictive. i need rehab to get over my addiction. hahhaa.
15 Sep 09, 23:51
Michelle: Of course la. Very expensive to make good quality goods leh. Thats why so ex mah. but the cheaper ones sighs. CMI sia
15 Sep 09, 23:50
lauraa; michelle: ZOMG. hahhaa. i think the ones we're looking for OOS though. sad sad. maybe its time to try different flavours. xD
15 Sep 09, 23:49
Michelle: um... my candy choice ar... but the mass quantity ones got no quality leh. not nice to eat; waiting for new flavours now haha
15 Sep 09, 23:47
lauraa; michelle: hahhaa. you're always broke. walao. so far away.. nvmm, better than my original choice. LAWL. you must make your candy choice also~ =p
15 Sep 09, 23:46
Michelle: sighs. um... orchard ion got fresh ones one day we go. I NEED TO DESTRESS. but i think this month also gone le haha.
15 Sep 09, 23:45
lauraa; michelle: hahhaa. i also WANT lo. i need to make my candy purchase soon lo. but cannot find anything i like. sighs. any suggestions? =(
this is what happens when michelle and i go on a high, post-famine/drought of ecandy. we go borderline insane and then she gets stressed and i get .......
that's a secret for another time.
16 Sep 09, 00:02
Michelle: haha... we're totally crazy we will go shop for chocolates next week lor, and NEWLOOK,Topshop.haha
16 Sep 09, 00:00
lauraa; michelle: ehhh. how i know. you know what i normally like. white choco too. but i dont like cute, i like s3xy designs. xD
15 Sep 09, 23:58
Michelle: And i dont like nuts!
15 Sep 09, 23:57
Michelle: wrappers*
15 Sep 09, 23:57
Michelle: But what kind do you like to eat. I like gold wrapped white chocolate with cute decorations. Yummy!
15 Sep 09, 23:55
lauraa; michelle: uhhhh. sadly no. -.- hard to find also. might as well give up but too addicted. must help me find a new, better flavour!!!
15 Sep 09, 23:54
Michelle: your*
15 Sep 09, 23:54
Michelle: i haven found the flavour i like how to stick, must try out different flavours maybe i might fall in love with it. You addiction to THAT BRAND sighs. no comments lor. But that brand quite alot right?
15 Sep 09, 23:52
lauraa; michelle: hahaha. you're too picky. =p stuck with one flavour which is addictive. i need rehab to get over my addiction. hahhaa.
15 Sep 09, 23:51
Michelle: Of course la. Very expensive to make good quality goods leh. Thats why so ex mah. but the cheaper ones sighs. CMI sia
15 Sep 09, 23:50
lauraa; michelle: ZOMG. hahhaa. i think the ones we're looking for OOS though. sad sad. maybe its time to try different flavours. xD
15 Sep 09, 23:49
Michelle: um... my candy choice ar... but the mass quantity ones got no quality leh. not nice to eat; waiting for new flavours now haha
15 Sep 09, 23:47
lauraa; michelle: hahhaa. you're always broke. walao. so far away.. nvmm, better than my original choice. LAWL. you must make your candy choice also~ =p
15 Sep 09, 23:46
Michelle: sighs. um... orchard ion got fresh ones one day we go. I NEED TO DESTRESS. but i think this month also gone le haha.
15 Sep 09, 23:45
lauraa; michelle: hahhaa. i also WANT lo. i need to make my candy purchase soon lo. but cannot find anything i like. sighs. any suggestions? =(
this is what happens when michelle and i go on a high, post-famine/drought of ecandy. we go borderline insane and then she gets stressed and i get .......
that's a secret for another time.
what we could have been, 12:05 am.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
literally rolled out of bed today. was supposed to wake up early to study but i managed to stay in bed until nearly eleven. go me. s'funny how i can never sleep enough but when papers come round, i can sleep half a day away.
met chelle at parkway to study. her; finance, me; er. i'm really really backlogged since i've been trying to revise then go back from the start and start over before moving on to the next chapter. kinda demoralizing when i forget stuff but gotta press on anyways.
michelle's gone on a no-make up streak but she looks like a ghost right now. -.- then again, she's so lazy to take off her makeup which is the result of her pimple outbreak which she won't stop yapping about. so tempted to tell her SERVE YOU RIGHT. oh wait, i just did. heh. i know you're gonna spam my tagboard about this but its so true.
studied. gossiped. snacked. music. e-candy-ed, unsuccessfully.
me and mich were hoping to make the cafe as our permanent study place but the food and service has really gone down the drain. bleahs.
packed up early so mich and i could get our fix on looking for new clothes. although pp kinda sucks now since dorothy perkins and topshop have moved out.
walked home. tonight was unusually smoggy. ugh. plans to walk in ecp went right out the window after that.
three more days, i'm so fucking scared.
met chelle at parkway to study. her; finance, me; er. i'm really really backlogged since i've been trying to revise then go back from the start and start over before moving on to the next chapter. kinda demoralizing when i forget stuff but gotta press on anyways.
michelle's gone on a no-make up streak but she looks like a ghost right now. -.- then again, she's so lazy to take off her makeup which is the result of her pimple outbreak which she won't stop yapping about. so tempted to tell her SERVE YOU RIGHT. oh wait, i just did. heh. i know you're gonna spam my tagboard about this but its so true.
studied. gossiped. snacked. music. e-candy-ed, unsuccessfully.
me and mich were hoping to make the cafe as our permanent study place but the food and service has really gone down the drain. bleahs.
packed up early so mich and i could get our fix on looking for new clothes. although pp kinda sucks now since dorothy perkins and topshop have moved out.
walked home. tonight was unusually smoggy. ugh. plans to walk in ecp went right out the window after that.
three more days, i'm so fucking scared.
what we could have been, 11:26 pm.
nothing is what it seems,
no one sees the girl behind the face.
the pain behind the laugh.
the tears behind the smile.
leaving you behind.
moving on with him.
abandoned by her.
them vanishing again.
i hated you.
i loved him.
i adored her.
i respected them.
all of it gone.
an illusion, a dream.
and so,
nothing is what it seems.
no one sees the girl behind the face.
the pain behind the laugh.
the tears behind the smile.
leaving you behind.
moving on with him.
abandoned by her.
them vanishing again.
i hated you.
i loved him.
i adored her.
i respected them.
all of it gone.
an illusion, a dream.
and so,
nothing is what it seems.
what we could have been, 12:47 am.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
only good thing this weekend was i finally got the engraving done. after like ages of wanting it and not really doing anything about it.
i feel stupid putting this mask of indifference when i know i'm coming undone. why can't people understand i've got my own problems and i don't need theirs?
been trying to study. sickens me when i go back to my notes and realize i don't remember anything. bleahs. i feel so bad that my studies are so hopeless that my friends are actually WORRYING about me passing a stupid test. sighs.
anyhoos, gonna continue half-glaring, half-cursing and attempt at studying.
i feel stupid putting this mask of indifference when i know i'm coming undone. why can't people understand i've got my own problems and i don't need theirs?
been trying to study. sickens me when i go back to my notes and realize i don't remember anything. bleahs. i feel so bad that my studies are so hopeless that my friends are actually WORRYING about me passing a stupid test. sighs.
anyhoos, gonna continue half-glaring, half-cursing and attempt at studying.
what we could have been, 10:51 pm.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
been feeling a bit under the weather the last few days. super exhausted. slept for a coupla hours but when i woke up this morning, i felt like it was just seconds ago that i had just succumbed to slumber.
forcing myself to finish lolita by vladimir nabokov. i've always wanted to read lolita but its so difficult to continue coz its kinda dull.
parents had a little get together coz ashley and aaron are in from melbourne and we havent seen them. yeah, they've really grown up. aaron looks so much like a younger josh now. jonathan was there too. is it possible that he grew taller?? miss them, its a pity they're flying back on tuesday. boo.
forcing myself to finish lolita by vladimir nabokov. i've always wanted to read lolita but its so difficult to continue coz its kinda dull.
parents had a little get together coz ashley and aaron are in from melbourne and we havent seen them. yeah, they've really grown up. aaron looks so much like a younger josh now. jonathan was there too. is it possible that he grew taller?? miss them, its a pity they're flying back on tuesday. boo.
what we could have been, 2:07 am.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
michimichi, hearts&kisses to you. =D you know why. hehe. anyways wake up, switch on your phone and sms me! i need some entertainment in class later, girl.
work work work. work's been pretty enjoyable i guess. funny to talk with sari, huda and the boys. we're just a noisy bunch of youths. teehee. i must stretch the word YOUTH to accomodate david but yeah. hahaha.
have to leave for school in about fifteen minutes. kinda nervous coz i'm not sure what to expect. seriously i'm questioning my choice in majors right now but too late for regrets.
still a bit miffed with some people. but i really can't do anything about it. everything's been said and done and the dynamic of our friendships have drastically changed much to my dismay and relief.
It starts with a secret, a glimmer of light
The last leaf that falls, the swallow’s first flight
A touch of a raindrop, a sparkle of snow
The north star that guides you wherever you go
Racing every shadow, chasing sunlight till the stars glow
Let the truth in your heart send you everyday
You’ll never lose your way.
-katherine mcphee
work work work. work's been pretty enjoyable i guess. funny to talk with sari, huda and the boys. we're just a noisy bunch of youths. teehee. i must stretch the word YOUTH to accomodate david but yeah. hahaha.
have to leave for school in about fifteen minutes. kinda nervous coz i'm not sure what to expect. seriously i'm questioning my choice in majors right now but too late for regrets.
still a bit miffed with some people. but i really can't do anything about it. everything's been said and done and the dynamic of our friendships have drastically changed much to my dismay and relief.
It starts with a secret, a glimmer of light
The last leaf that falls, the swallow’s first flight
A touch of a raindrop, a sparkle of snow
The north star that guides you wherever you go
Racing every shadow, chasing sunlight till the stars glow
Let the truth in your heart send you everyday
You’ll never lose your way.
-katherine mcphee
what we could have been, 12:51 pm.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
ugh, something's wrong with blogger. anyhoos, pretty good day overall la. started work. sherman, you are damn lucky i came in today la if not i think you and david would have just gotten that difficult stack!
received further bad news later in the noon but i just tried to remain positive although i think i saw thunderclouds looming over my head for the last hour of work or so.
went out to ecp again. its my haven from reality. seriously. test on the 19th, somehow the phrase 'i need a miracle' is ringing through my head. sighs. that's not a good start.
received further bad news later in the noon but i just tried to remain positive although i think i saw thunderclouds looming over my head for the last hour of work or so.
went out to ecp again. its my haven from reality. seriously. test on the 19th, somehow the phrase 'i need a miracle' is ringing through my head. sighs. that's not a good start.
what we could have been, 11:14 pm.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
couldn't sleep the whole night and reluctantly went to bed at 6. woke up about 10 plus. mooched around the house, watched my brother play his games. nothing interesting really.
kinda wonder if my body/mind abhors sleep. its like some days i feel really drained but i just can't fall asleep. and its starting to catch up on me. i'm high-strung, irritable and much more emotional than usual.
on a totally random note, i came across this online. its an old superstition; hold your breath when you pass by a graveyard so you don’t breathe in any of the souls. weird huh.
Who do you need?
Who do you love,
When you come undone
kinda wonder if my body/mind abhors sleep. its like some days i feel really drained but i just can't fall asleep. and its starting to catch up on me. i'm high-strung, irritable and much more emotional than usual.
on a totally random note, i came across this online. its an old superstition; hold your breath when you pass by a graveyard so you don’t breathe in any of the souls. weird huh.
Who do you need?
Who do you love,
When you come undone
what we could have been, 6:40 pm.
Friday, September 04, 2009
pretty crap morning. felt a bit more than just miffed but just trying to remain positive. so yeah. anyways tried cooling down by rereading the time traveler's wife (still pissed about the movie). of course, a phrase in the book caught my attention so i put the quote on my msn nick. on hindsight given my crummy morning, it was a bit disturbing to see 'a drop of blood in a bowl of milk' as part of my nick.
so yeah, no, i'm not feeling suicidal. miserable maybe but not suicidal. i guess, i like the quote very much. i used to play with paints and i think i really liked it when i had a cup of white colored water and then you throw in a drop of thick, zesty red. at first its like a blemish on the surface before it starts 'bleeding'. eventually the red and white settles and you end up with this nearly pepto-bismol pink with white swirls.
i dunno. its this weird serenity i get from it. does that make me weird? not really. i don't see the need to fit people's expectations (except oddly on occasion, i try and fail at my parents').
anyways back to the topic. i guess, it reminds me that even setbacks will pass. that i haven't been seeing the big picture. eventually like the red, unhappy events get swallowed up and sometimes forgotten in the sea of everything. its whether i let myself be happy, or if i choose to focus on all the negativity (of course, karma's gonna kick my ass if i let that happen). but whatever the case, it just becomes a part of me.
so yeah, no, i'm not feeling suicidal. miserable maybe but not suicidal. i guess, i like the quote very much. i used to play with paints and i think i really liked it when i had a cup of white colored water and then you throw in a drop of thick, zesty red. at first its like a blemish on the surface before it starts 'bleeding'. eventually the red and white settles and you end up with this nearly pepto-bismol pink with white swirls.
i dunno. its this weird serenity i get from it. does that make me weird? not really. i don't see the need to fit people's expectations (except oddly on occasion, i try and fail at my parents').
anyways back to the topic. i guess, it reminds me that even setbacks will pass. that i haven't been seeing the big picture. eventually like the red, unhappy events get swallowed up and sometimes forgotten in the sea of everything. its whether i let myself be happy, or if i choose to focus on all the negativity (of course, karma's gonna kick my ass if i let that happen). but whatever the case, it just becomes a part of me.
what we could have been, 2:23 pm.
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
-everywhere, michelle branch
it sucks trying to forget. i want to, have been aching to for awhile but i foolishly let it continue. time passes so slowly when you're not around, yet when i see you there's just not enough time in the world. sucks huh. to be part of the picture.
deleting you from my contacts, removing your pictures from my phone, i don't wish to have anything to do with you. but if it were only that simple.
YOU.
CONFUSE.
ME.
AND.
I.
THINK.
I.
LOVE.
YOU.
FOR.
IT.
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
-everywhere, michelle branch
it sucks trying to forget. i want to, have been aching to for awhile but i foolishly let it continue. time passes so slowly when you're not around, yet when i see you there's just not enough time in the world. sucks huh. to be part of the picture.
deleting you from my contacts, removing your pictures from my phone, i don't wish to have anything to do with you. but if it were only that simple.
YOU.
CONFUSE.
ME.
AND.
I.
THINK.
I.
LOVE.
YOU.
FOR.
IT.
what we could have been, 11:57 pm.
i normally think i had a flair for being overly dramatic and i'm about to exercise it right now.
I WAS ROBBED OF MY EMOTIONAL CLIMAX for the time traveler's wife movie. after reading the book, i had steeled myself for a major sob fest during the movie but they had removed good and essential parts of the book and lost the whole weepy not-quite-happily-never-after ending and instead rushed into an ending that i felt cheated of. GRAWR.
and to think i had anxiously and not very patiently awaited for this movie. even made a bunch of back up dates for the movie and informed everyone i was gonna have a sobbing fit at the end of the movie (had it followed the book).
ummms. i actually had a whole essay of complaints right after the movie. but i think after listing my complaints to mich, i have forgotten most of them. feh, my advice would be to read the book after the movie or you'll be crying for a different reason than the one that the book promised.
loved today. just managed to relax and unwind. oddly, sometimes moving on means revisiting the past. although i'm still not sure where i stand, i know i have your support and that matters most.
I WAS ROBBED OF MY EMOTIONAL CLIMAX for the time traveler's wife movie. after reading the book, i had steeled myself for a major sob fest during the movie but they had removed good and essential parts of the book and lost the whole weepy not-quite-happily-never-after ending and instead rushed into an ending that i felt cheated of. GRAWR.
and to think i had anxiously and not very patiently awaited for this movie. even made a bunch of back up dates for the movie and informed everyone i was gonna have a sobbing fit at the end of the movie (had it followed the book).
ummms. i actually had a whole essay of complaints right after the movie. but i think after listing my complaints to mich, i have forgotten most of them. feh, my advice would be to read the book after the movie or you'll be crying for a different reason than the one that the book promised.
loved today. just managed to relax and unwind. oddly, sometimes moving on means revisiting the past. although i'm still not sure where i stand, i know i have your support and that matters most.
what we could have been, 8:43 pm.
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
i'm actually too lazy to blog but mich pushed me to since she's even more lazier than me to update her blog. -.- stupid cow. so yeah.
suppose to meet at 1 but postponed to nearly 3 coz i had to walk over to her place in the gosh darn blazing heat while she happily styled her hair. -.- i freaked out when i reached her house coz when i was walking into, a stupid huge ass grasshopper flew out of nowhere and landed on my arm. okay, for those who know me bugs/creepy crawlies scare the fuck out of me. i have insect phobia, whatever its called, and even ants scare me. ugh.
yeah. went down to school. admin always so screwed up but whatev. made a sarcastic remark and it turned out to be an uber funny. i joked with the admin lady handling mich's case that mich had popped a baby since she had been away from school for the last ten months and the woman was like 'OMG, really?'. burst out laughing while mich prob wanted to kill me coz despite her denial, the admin person looked very unconvinced. wahahah.
of course, we had a major giggle fit and called jt to 'break the news' to him. but i think i was super incoherent that he asked me to repeat. couldnt help it, mich was already in her laughing fit and i was close to joining her when we made the phone call. teehee.
kbox. i think i've gotten the few chinese songs to a pat. plus i can jump from male to female which means i mostly get male parts coz mich can't reach that low. le sigh. but still quite fun.
headed to marina to play pool. JT! mich is super determined to beat you. but first i think she needs to beat me. -.- 3 out of 5 leh mich and i'm just about the lousy-est player. =x hahaha. mich complains that i play too much like some people but i doubt it. my aim is waaaaaaay off, i'd be darn lucky to sink a coupla balls, much less play a full game.
went window shopping for awhile. bought my flats/sandals that i've been looking at for awhile. yayness.
school's starting next week. i feel like my life's rushing past me and i'm not really enjoying it.. its like by this time next year, i'd probably have graduated (if i remain in singapore) and that really saddens me. to be just 19 and not quite an adult, not quite a teen either. sighs.
suppose to meet at 1 but postponed to nearly 3 coz i had to walk over to her place in the gosh darn blazing heat while she happily styled her hair. -.- i freaked out when i reached her house coz when i was walking into, a stupid huge ass grasshopper flew out of nowhere and landed on my arm. okay, for those who know me bugs/creepy crawlies scare the fuck out of me. i have insect phobia, whatever its called, and even ants scare me. ugh.
yeah. went down to school. admin always so screwed up but whatev. made a sarcastic remark and it turned out to be an uber funny. i joked with the admin lady handling mich's case that mich had popped a baby since she had been away from school for the last ten months and the woman was like 'OMG, really?'. burst out laughing while mich prob wanted to kill me coz despite her denial, the admin person looked very unconvinced. wahahah.
of course, we had a major giggle fit and called jt to 'break the news' to him. but i think i was super incoherent that he asked me to repeat. couldnt help it, mich was already in her laughing fit and i was close to joining her when we made the phone call. teehee.
kbox. i think i've gotten the few chinese songs to a pat. plus i can jump from male to female which means i mostly get male parts coz mich can't reach that low. le sigh. but still quite fun.
headed to marina to play pool. JT! mich is super determined to beat you. but first i think she needs to beat me. -.- 3 out of 5 leh mich and i'm just about the lousy-est player. =x hahaha. mich complains that i play too much like some people but i doubt it. my aim is waaaaaaay off, i'd be darn lucky to sink a coupla balls, much less play a full game.
went window shopping for awhile. bought my flats/sandals that i've been looking at for awhile. yayness.
school's starting next week. i feel like my life's rushing past me and i'm not really enjoying it.. its like by this time next year, i'd probably have graduated (if i remain in singapore) and that really saddens me. to be just 19 and not quite an adult, not quite a teen either. sighs.
what we could have been, 11:08 pm.
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
mom's bday today. so me and my sibs cabbed down to her office place at knock off time to 'surprise' her. i'm so blur, thought today was a public holiday but actually its just for students and stuff. heh.
went to saint pierre. apparently the chef, emmanuel stroobant, there is super famous. for wearing black and since he's blonde and fairly handsome, its a bit of a stunner thing. so i told my mom that i hope we'd see the chef coz i seriously wanted some eye candy, didn't happen but didn't really matter coz the dinner was fanorgasmictastic! i'm totally in love with french cuisine now.
i used to think foie gras was super gross. its stuffed goose/duck liver which made me feel really sick thinking about it but i was really curious about it so i tried some. OMGGGG, seriously, no regrets trying it despite how unappetizing it looked.
blew my whole not eating chocolate diet tonight. grrr. i couldnt resist. the review said that the chocolate cake was a MUST TRY. and when it comes to chocolate cake, i have ZERO resistance. so i ordered it. although have to admit, it was worthwhile. i think my parents were so amused by my reaction. pure happiness and bliss from the first bite.
feeling so happy since i've had my chocolate. such a good good good mood. i love you i love you i love you, chocolate gateau cake name which i forgot and couldnt pronounce in the first place.
went to saint pierre. apparently the chef, emmanuel stroobant, there is super famous. for wearing black and since he's blonde and fairly handsome, its a bit of a stunner thing. so i told my mom that i hope we'd see the chef coz i seriously wanted some eye candy, didn't happen but didn't really matter coz the dinner was fanorgasmictastic! i'm totally in love with french cuisine now.
i used to think foie gras was super gross. its stuffed goose/duck liver which made me feel really sick thinking about it but i was really curious about it so i tried some. OMGGGG, seriously, no regrets trying it despite how unappetizing it looked.
blew my whole not eating chocolate diet tonight. grrr. i couldnt resist. the review said that the chocolate cake was a MUST TRY. and when it comes to chocolate cake, i have ZERO resistance. so i ordered it. although have to admit, it was worthwhile. i think my parents were so amused by my reaction. pure happiness and bliss from the first bite.
feeling so happy since i've had my chocolate. such a good good good mood. i love you i love you i love you, chocolate gateau cake name which i forgot and couldnt pronounce in the first place.
what we could have been, 11:31 pm.
"Before Ah answer, Petey, do ya mind tellin' me where this is comin' from? You've gone 'round with your chin draggin' the ground for days now, and it don't take a genius to figure out somethin's wrong. An' in my own experience, Ah've learned that, if ya don't talk about it, it sure won't get any better, an' it'll prob'ly just get worse." She reached up and patted his shoulder affectionately, and settled in for a long session. "So come on and tell ol' Rogue all about it and we'll see if we can't figure out an answer to the problem. Or at least talk it so near to death that it just gives up."
love this quote from paper flowers. it makes me laugh yet totally nod in understanding. i used to think i was a good listener. but maybe some days, i'm listening but i'm not hearing. methinks its time for me to change that.
love this quote from paper flowers. it makes me laugh yet totally nod in understanding. i used to think i was a good listener. but maybe some days, i'm listening but i'm not hearing. methinks its time for me to change that.
what we could have been, 1:55 am.
caught the proposal, super nice movie. made me feel a little gloomy since there were like literally couples everywhere in the theatre and i was pretty much the very odd one out. sighs.
crummy evening so i walked out. i love ecp, or rather beaches. just love sitting there while the wind ruffles my hair and listening to the waves crash onto the sand.
jake came down to find me. poor him. he had to listen to me sulk and complain. later we gossiped for awhile. i think we got a little too loud coz there was a couple sitting on a bench further down and they kept glaring at us. jake just glared back. he's perfected/improved on his glare, after the four years i've known him. heh.
jake left after a while. stayed out a bit more. was about close to eleven when i finally went back.
you can call me a fool
i know its true
but that doesn't change
my feelings for him.
crummy evening so i walked out. i love ecp, or rather beaches. just love sitting there while the wind ruffles my hair and listening to the waves crash onto the sand.
jake came down to find me. poor him. he had to listen to me sulk and complain. later we gossiped for awhile. i think we got a little too loud coz there was a couple sitting on a bench further down and they kept glaring at us. jake just glared back. he's perfected/improved on his glare, after the four years i've known him. heh.
jake left after a while. stayed out a bit more. was about close to eleven when i finally went back.
you can call me a fool
i know its true
but that doesn't change
my feelings for him.
what we could have been, 12:42 am.
